I keep forgetting what this feels like, This hollow aching pain in my chest, Like a falling cascade of rain around me it takes it’s bite, All I feel is shivering cold and all I can do is try my best, No one here to hold me, No one will ever see. That your words came too late, And so I do weep and cry, Where are all the reasons why? I did as you said with love and hope as my guide, So why oh why is my heart tossed aside? Not just once, twice, or thrice, I’ve lost count of my hearts sacrifice.
Not the poem I wanted to write, Not the words that should be said, I am not who I should be, But I am who I am, Enshrouded in pain, That’s almost all I know, But with you I seem to smile, A ‘thank you’ to you my love, That’s the least I owe.
A recursion of happiness mellows through your heart, Confusion and lust in my thoughts, Embarrassed and exposed you are when we part. I’m a sweet lil girl with a skin of apricot. Did you know that I am as dark as I am light? I’m a masochistic vampire unready to bite, I stare down because I am too afraid to look at the mirror in your eyes, Soon to be judged by you, will I be enough to satisfy? Love, I wonder what it means to you, do just just want me close… a pink hue? Am I just an echo in your mind, soon to be left behind ? My heart beats so tightly, timidly in your hands embrace, A cute face, yes, but a sea of floating sadness reigns supreme in my void, I believe I was meant to be alone. to stay away. I’m too use to being toyed, A broken princess, a hopeless romantic all my life, There is just no way I could be a decent wife! A waterfall in my eyes, at the realization that I cannot be, anyone but me, My instinct is to run away, fade away into the night, To run so far away that I will escape your warm sight. You have something important to say to me… I know what it is, Regardless I know for sure that you love me more than I love you, I want to close my eyes and rest, forget forget, My heart is so cold, conditioned for warmth, I turn towards an ounce of affection, I am always freezing, my temperature controlled by your touch, it’s every sensation, The feeling of me looking up to you is too intense, Blurry, fuzzy, I’m enamored and dazed in every sense, If only I could stay in your arms for another day, But all I can wish for is to say; hey maybe someday.
A kaleidoscope of colors in a moment, How does this heart shaped box unfold, unfold, Its as if time stopped, frozen font, forever cold, Then water run run, forward, brittle frost, How can this be ? this waterfall, clock broken, in working order, I fall down into the leaves, reminisce, wish, foster, crush, Flash, instant, far, distant, Wishing, dreaming, nightmare, leaving. On this peaceful, hopeful day.. Calm breathing… humble care, Warm eminence in this instant, Prefect limerence you appear so distant.
Alternative Tears 